All I've Ever Wanted to Say - novel by Mary T. Shannon

Stay, Don’t Run is a story about love, loss, and the promise of possibility. As Claire Sullivan approaches her sixtieth birthday, she and her ex decide to give their marriage one last chance. After marrying and divorcing John twice over the last forty years, they have somehow remained good friends.

Six weeks after they move back in together, John climbs a flight of stairs and passes out. Diagnosed with a rare medical condition he’ll soon die from, he learns about a specialized surgery that may save his life. While John undergoes a twelve-hour surgery, Claire waits. With nothing but her thoughts and old People magazines to keep her company, she begins sorting through her past, confronting secrets she’s spent a lifetime running from.

In the process, Claire reclaims a part of herself she left behind over fifty years ago, and comes to understand what she was too young to see then, in order to see ever more clearly now. It’s the secrets we keep, she realizes, and the lies we tell ourselves about them, that keep us running our whole lives.